flowers

Every day, I have to toss wilted flowers. 10 days ago I collected a bunch of flowers from the arrangements at the gravesite, and I have them in vases all over the house. But now they're dying. Every flower I throw away hurts me. It's silly, because Chris never even saw these flowers, but every dead flower is another pain in my heart. It's just a few hours until 4 weeks, and I still cry everyday. And I still can't believe that he's gone.