Chris' closet

I went through Chris' closet today, and I cried. Some of the relatives have been invited to take Chris' t-shirts, so today I looked through his closet. I took a shirt that he got for a hockey championship, and also a shirt that he bought in Victoria. We were there in May 2009 when we cruised on Splendor. That was where he had his first legal drink, since the drinking age in British Columbia is 19. He was so happy on that cruise, and had so much fun, and I can't imagine what changed in 19 months. Or did I really not notice? Could I have been so blind? The questions continue, and there will never be any answers. And I cry.