Redlands

I went out to Redlands this morning, to the place where Chris died. It was hard, but not as hard as I expected, I guess because there is no physical evidence of him like there is at the cemetery. I needed to go there, even though I knew it wouldn't answer any questions. In fact, I have more questions now. Why did he pick this location? He couldn't have seen it from the freeway, so it was either an accident, or he picked it for a reason. I figured out a couple of places that could have been the exact spot that he died, and I left flowers at both spots. I wish I could understand his thinking. I don't think I'll need to go back there very often, but I do think I want to drive it at night, in case it looks different. We don't know if he went directly from home, or if he went to Tommy's first, so I may have to try that itinerary also.